“Then the Lord answered me and said, ‘Write the vision and engrave it plainly on tablets so that the one who reads it will run. For the vision is yet for the appointed [future] time. It hurries toward the goal [of fulfillment]; it will not fail. Even though it delays, wait [patiently] for it, because it will certainly come; it will not delay.'” -Habakkuk 2: 2-3
June 4th, 2019 is a day I will never forget. When I chose to believe that it was not my time to fulfill the vision God had promised would come to past, He said otherwise. This day, I remember waking up ready to lay out my post-graduate plans. I had job options lined up, masters programs I could still apply to and a plan on how to study in preparation to retake my MCAT. As God would have it, my parents were out that morning & wouldn’t be back until later in the day. Waiting for their return had me super anxious because the honest truth is, I was very uncertain about what I was about to present. These weren’t things I had taken ample time to plan out, I was desperate and feeling very much defeated despite the many accomplishments I had just achieved: Graduating with my bachelors in Biological Sciences, successfully completing my presidential term with Liberated Gospel, and spearheading a new program, among other things. I felt that this was me stepping out on faith because the plan I initially had wasn’t forth coming. BUT BOYYYYYYYYYY (hahaha) ! God had it all worked out !
I stopped checking my email for maybe about a week or so because at that point, I was no longer expecting the letter to come forth. But this day, something told me to check my email. I was not intentionally looking out for the letter, I just felt an urge to go check my email; so I did. I was in the living room with my sister and I left her to go get my phone in the room. As I picked up my phone, it was weird. It was like it wasn’t me, I was simply being obedient to my spirit (the spirit of God in me). I opened the phone, opened my email; lo and behold, there it was !!!!! When I say I was shook!!!!! I was in disbelief!!!! I read the email twice, opened the letter that was attached, read it twice. I still could not believe my eyes so I had to get my sister to read it to make sure I wasn’t seeing things (haha).
I was filled with so many emotions I didn’t even know how to respond. I wanted to jump, cry, scream and shout all at the same time!!! Before I even shared the news with anyone else I went on my knees and thanked God. I literally could say nothing else but THANK YOU ABBA !!!!! My heart was so full. My disbelief wasn’t from a place of thinking that God wasn’t able or that he wouldn’t do it. It came from a place of awe because the timing seemed so off to me, so delayed but God is NEVER late. He’s time is the best time !
From June of 2018 when I started applying to Medical school, to June of 2019 when I got accepted, so much happened. It seemed crazy and a lot of it didn’t make sense while it was happening but after, everything was crystal clear, it all made sense. Within this one year time span, God was teaching me how to TRUST him and to REST in him. Thinking back to all the happenings, things related and things unrelated to my journey to medical school (& even now while in Medical school), he was literally saying to me “but, will you trust me?” I thought I was trusting him but it wasn’t until I got into those situations which shook my faith that I realized that my trust in God wasn’t as deep as I thought it was. I really didn’t know what it meant to truly trust God until it was literally my option because everything I was believing and praying for, could only come through him.
What blows me away is this: The night before my first big graduation ceremony, I had no idea what to put on my cap, literally no idea. But then I thought about my entire college career and even more so, that final year and all I could think was THANK YOU ABBA! So I went with that, but God said, “I’m gonna need you to put a little more on there” ; so I did. I added ‘B.A. –> D.O.’ Honestly, between us, I was a little nervous putting that on there because I hadn’t gotten accepted (at this point in time I was actually wait-listed) and truth be told, I didn’t know if I would be getting accepted. I must’ve read that cap like 30 times before I finally got to put on the following day. And every time I read it, it gave me so much peace, it became more and more possible and so real. What I didn’t know at the time was that I was doing exactly what God instructed in Habakkuk 2:2-3. As far as I knew, I was just decorating my cap (haha); little did I know, it was all part of God’s plan.
The way I received this scripture is even more mind blowing! After getting home post graduation, my pastor called me and said that he wants me to prepare a message on ‘The Joy of a Fulfilled Vision’. Can you all image what was going through my mind?! First of all I was thinking ‘Me give a message? Why me?’ Then I thought ‘What vision? What exactly do you want me to say?’ I was just like, Jesus, I don’t understand. But I accepted (not that it was up for debate). In my preparation for the message I came across Habakkuk 2:2-3 and I made it my theme text. I prepared the message, ready to share it the following week but I was unable to share. I now know that my being unable to share was God being intentional. My message was postponed until the following week which happened to be the same week I got my acceptance letter (Would you look at MY GOD)! This was when I realized what I had done a month ago: written my vision down, plain and clear. It was also a sign from above that the time was near.
I don’t know what you’re trusting God for in the new year, the new decade, but I encourage you to write it down, make it clear, and read it daily. Even if it doesn’t happen when you think it will or how you think it will, know that it will happen at the appointed time. Things might not make sense while you’re going through it but I promise and I can testify that everything is preparing you for the day that vision is to be fulfilled. Above all, trust God will all of you. That’s one of the best things you can do for yourself. TRUST God and REST in him, it will bring bring you so much peace.
Heart Talk 